My Insane World

To be or not to be?

2009-10-31T19:40:00.003+08:00

(I don't know why that's the post title. It's the first title that came into my mind. HAHA) It's finally our sembreak! :D sweet Freeeeeedom!

Well anyway, our classes resume on the Fourth of November. Intramurals on the seventh. It's a Saturday though. T.T Ha-ha.

And before I forget, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!:D:D:D

ot was kind of fun practicing for the Intrams. Funny thing is, I'm one of the players in Basketball. HAHA! Like I can shoot and lay-up. Really, I don't know how to. And the practice thing? We just tried to learn how to shoot in the RIGHT way. :)) And yeah. That's just about it. haha!

We waited for Louie Ann. Slowpoke! :)) Sarah Lyn and I laughed a lot today...again. We laughed then played. And I don't know why, but I couldn't shoot anything when people look. My elbow joint on my right hurt like it is sprained. And I feel... woozy. haha.

Getting the ball from the Fourth Years was not a problem for SLY. As for me and Louie Ann? Gosh. EMBARRASSING. Shy, I was. It was hard to, because, I don't know. I think I shouldn't be, 'cause some of them are people I know. I know, I'm just really weird. At least the one I'm getting the ball from looked friendly and he smiled. Haha! It was nice to see them play. Intense. They know what they are doing. Me? What the heck. I don't even know all the rules. I only know the travelling, double and foul thing. When you hit other players. And yeah, the outside thing.(Of course! HAHA).

SLY and I got bored. We went to the boys' CR. Hey, we were curious about what's it like to be in there. The sticker there was weird. It has a picture of a guy in black tux, and with chinese characters. (I have no idea what it means.) And the CR stinks! HAHA. Smells like pee. I think they do flush after peeing, there are working flushes. There's an exhause fan. Oh well. It needs Lysol or something. Muriatic acid. It's actually like the girls' CR. Theirs is better. They have flushes, we don't.

After going to The John, we went backstage... to the music thing room, where the music and microphones are operated. It was locked, but the window, yes, the sliding window is open. I don't know what came into my mind. I grabbed the wooden gun thing, the one they use in C.A.T. and poked the lock. HAHAHA. Teejay saw us and said, "Hoy, ano ginagawa niyo diyan?". So I said, "Wala lang. Binubuksan yung pinto." Sarah said, "Tinitignan namin kung puwede na kami maging magnanakaw." Then Teejay replied, "Sira ulo. Akin na nga" then he poked the lock, too! HAHAHA! Then it opened. He left. Then SLY and I tried to close it. Well, we did. And we laughed at our craziness.

Then we tried to jump from the stage to the ground. It's at the same level as my chest, so it is approximately Four Feet and some inches high. I yelped while jumping. HAHA. After jumping, we tried to climb it without using the stairs. I know. It's crazy. AND it's painful. But it made me laugh at my foolishness. :))

So, I'm currently eating Stick-O while typing this and chatting with Monina. (She made me remember some of her pictures that I took. The ones that I can't stop laughing at. PEACE. HAHAHA!) Yuuum! Want some? ;)

Adventure. :D

2009-09-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

It's an adventure to go to Sir Edgar's house. I lab it. haha

Maputik sobra, pero enjoy. Umuwi muna ako para kumain at magbihis. Eh yun. Maputik daw, which means "bawal ang sapatos" haha. Eh wala akong sandals or slippers. Yes, I don't own a pair of slippers. Bumili muna kami ni Peichen.

Pus pag dating namin school, yun, sakay na! haha. Nagulat ako nakita ko si Tinie. Hindi kasi siya masyado sumasama. 'Pos dun kami sa kotse ni Matthew. Sa likod katabi ko si Jess, at katapat namin sila Nigel at Peich. O di baon mangga na naman. Si Steve isang banyerang pagkain, puro junk pa.haha!

Tapos nakahabol si Wei, Diana at Rona, kaya kasama na rin sila. Tapos on our way, as usual, bangag mode. Haha! Una, napagtripan namin si Manong (yung lalaking nagmomotor na cool yung shades), tapos sumunod ayan na! Sina hhhm at hmmm. Pinasakay namin si Elaekka at Erika. haha iniwan namin sila naglalakad. Tapos paparazzi naman kami ni Nigel, picture-an namin na stolen. haha tapos nakadating na kami sa Edgar's Way.

Yung Edgar's way, very muddy. Yung pinaka una nakakatakot yung bamboo na ladder. Tae. Parang mahuhulog ka. :)) kasunod yung bamboo bridge, masnakakatakot. Parang mawawasak pag ako dumaan. HAHA! Tapos andiyan na yung maputik. Akala ko yung basa lang, yun pala yung malambot. Yung didikit yung tsinelas pag tinapak mo. haha. Tapos naglakad-lakad na kami papunta sa kanila. Ewan ko kung bakit ako nageenjoy. Parang nasa mountain! haha mapapaisip ka talaga kung paano nakakarating ng school si Sir ng malinis. Tapos nakarating na kami ng bahay ni sir. Hugas ng paa sa yung may pump. Poso ba tawag dun? Tapos nakita ako ni sir, ang una niyang nasabi ay, "Oh Marge, ano?...." nalimutan ko na pala.haha Basta parang tungkol yun sa daan. Tapos baliktad pa yung damit ni Sir. HAHA. Tapos sumunod na dumating na sila Karol, sobrang putik ng paa nila. xD

Tapos yun, may food at juice! haha sarap. xD Tapos pumunta kami sa loob, tinignan namin yung father ni Sir Edgar. Natatakot ako nung una tumingin, ewan ko kung bakit. Pangalawang time ko pa lang ata makakita ng taong nasa kabaong. Yung kumakabog yung dibdib ko ng sobra. haha tapos tinignan ko din naman, ayos lang pala. haha tapos nagpray. Tapos lumabas na ako. Tapos nagpicture na lang ako ng mga tao. Tapos nung aalis na, di kami nagpaalam, kasi sabi ni Jess bawal daw, bawal din daw magthank you, bawal din daw dumeretso ng bahay. So tinext na lang namin si Sir nung nasa daan na kami. Tapos bumaba kami ng school kasi sobrang dumi ulit ng paa namin. Nung pabalik naiwan ko yung right slipper ko! HAHA naapak ko pa yung paa ko. Akala ko nakasuot pa. Nastuck dun sa mud. Ang tanga ko. HAHAHA.

Tapos nag Nepo muna kami ni Peichen. Nagbayad siya ng Smart Bro, pus bumili kami pizza. Tapos umakyat kami, punta food court. Bili squidballs na ang sama ng lasa. Sayang 24php. Tapos nagbilliards kaming dalawa kahit hindi kami marunong. Nakakatuwa pag nakakashoot ka. :)) tapos may Emo Weird Guy dun, kinakausap kami, mafeeling. haha pinagtatawanan niya kami kasi losers kami sa billiards. Kakulay naman niya yung tako. bwisit. haha

Pus nag laro na lang kami ng shoot shoot dun gamit yung deflated na bola. Tapos pagkatapos, bababa na dapat kami, bigla ko nasabi "ice cream" naglakad kami paakyat kahit pababa yung escalator! haha tapos umuwi na kami. Ayun.

Pag uwi? naisip agad ay "kakain ako ng dinner. Nonood ako ng Katorse." HAHA. O di yun na nga. Papasok kaya si Sir bukas? 50:50. Waa. Magkakaroon nanaman kami ng substitute pag wala si Sir.

Ayun. Tapos may isa galit ata sakin. Alangan magsorry ako, hindi ko naman kasalanan. Tsk. Si Nigel may alam. HAHA. tsk. Magic. Ang bilis ng balita. Woohoo. Goodnight. :)

-Marge

tss.

2009-09-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people really don't notice how they hurt people. I don't know why, but they seem to be numb. The feeling is like, "are you stupid? You already know I really love you, but you still don't see me." How come? Are you just busy with all those people, and you couldn't find time to see me standing in front of you? Or am I just so invisible?
Sometimes, you should just stop, look and listen. Sometimes it just hits me so hard. It hurts. I'm not outspoken nor expressive. I couldn't say it. But you'd feel it if you look at me closely. You'd feel every beat that slows down. Try to look at the eyes that becomes flooded with tears. You'd see my blush that fades away. I don't keep secrets from him, but I know he does. I try to understand things he says, he doesn't. He doesn't even believe me, then he questions my trust. I'm just a girl. I'm not that matured. I don't get mad, I get hurt... I don't want to talk with him 'cause I'd remember what he tells me. I don't know if it's true. I don't even know if he knows that I hate it when he says "magsama kayo". It's like he's disowning me or something. Tss. I may be stupid, but I'm pretty sure that I'm not numb.
When I tried to tell him, he got mad. He says that I don't trust him. I trust you. But if you were me, you'd think of the same thing. And this girl. You keep on asking me why would I get jealous of her. She tells people that you still like her. Heck.
But still. You're everywhere to me. My accounts. My phone. The computer. In our room. At school. I make a lot of mistakes. I'm not as smart as she is. I'm not as good. But I'm patient. I don't listen to ***************** rants. I tried to let go when you said bye bye, I couldn't... I don't want to let go.
Oh well. I better go. Just letting out the things that matters to me...

-marge.

Ang gulo ng buhay September.

2009-09-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hi, it's been a while. haha.

It's frustrating to know that friend1, gets mad at you for helping her know the truth about friend2. It actually shouldn't be like that. Friend1 shouldn't've believed that lie about friend2. They are friends since preschool, they shouldn't be fighting like that. : It's actually not my business, but they're both my friends. I should at least try to make them realize that they are fighting over a rumor. And friend1 got mad at me 'cause she thinks I'm a blabber-mouth. No, I'm not. I just know friend2 will NEVER say something so cruel and so stupid.

ANYWAY.

I still don't have anything good to say. Kailan ba nagkaroon ng matino? HAHA. Kanina noong Filipino, si Kit, hindi ata makatulog, kitang-kita siya. :)) Ako pinipilit gumising, binubuklat yung mata. @_@ Si Teejay, tulog ata. :)) Si Wong, muntik na. Jepis daw. =))

Hay nako. Tapos nung P.E., volleyball, nakakainis. Lahat na lang ng natira ko, kiling. Bakit? Hindi ko alam. Para bang may extra bone ako sa arms ko na nakausli para tumabingi ang tira. Lagi outside. Tapos yung magserve, PALPAK. =)) Ang loser. Sorry sobra sa teammates.

Tapos nung Chinese Class na. Nababangag ako. :)) Tanong niyo si Jillian. Kung anu-ano ang pinaguusapan namin. Pati kaya siya, bangag din. haha! Tapos, andiyan na naman si Bunganga. Kairita! 'Wag ka, akala ko isusumbong na naman niya ako kasi kumakain ako. Wala lung. Gutom kami kanina. Walang cash pangbili ng food. Basta. Ewan. Natatawa ako sa kanya. Parang ewan.

Kasi ganito yun.

May nakita kaming plastic balloon. Alam niyo yun? Yung ginagawang lobo ng mga bata yung hihipanan nila tapos may laway-laway pang kasama sa loob. Oo, yun. Yung tig-pipiso. Eh kadiri, nagamit na yung straw. O di nilaro lang namin yung natitira na nakalagay sa metal na ewan. haha tapos, ginawa ko kinuha ko yung sa sira kong mechanical pencil. Yung mukhang straw. Tapos hinipanan ko. HAHA. Si Jillian? Ay kakaiba. Binanat niya muna ng konti yung plastic balloon. At alam niyo kung saan niya tinapat? Sa butas ng ilong niya. =)) B.

Tapos, binuga niya yung air gamit ang ilong. Naiisip niyo ba itsura niya? :)) Parang bata na may sipon na lumolobo. HAHA! Ang malala pa dun, nakita ng Teacher. Nakita pa nung bata. :))

SIPON NA LUMOLOBO. Dugyot. hahaha

Tapos siyempre, andun si Babuuuy!!! sa kabilang room. Wala lang. Nagwowork out DAW yun?!?! 'pos sabi ko kay Jillian, "Uy, si Babuy tinitignan si Bea. HAHAHA." Tapos tumingin siya kay Bea. Nakatingin din DAW sa kanya. :)) Uyy. May future. HAHA. Joke!

Wala lang. Mababaw kasi kaligayahan namin eh. Corny, pero natatawa talaga kami. Tsk. Sayang yung pinagkwekwentuhan naming sina Woohoo(Ji hoo+Woo Bin), Binhoo(Woo Bin+Jihoo ulit), Jun Pyo, Jae Kyong at Jan Di. :)) Tapos may kinilig siya. Kasi nanaginip ako. Si Jae Kyong daw kasi tapos si Binhoo nagaaway sa resto. Eh ka double date nila si Woohoo at Jan Di. :)) (oo, weird. Mafeeling lang talaga kaming dalawa kaya ang napagtripan namin Boys Over Flowers. HAHA) Tapos sa sobrang inis ni Woohoo, hinila niya si Jan Di palabas. Tapos naglakad lakad daw sila... Lakad lakad lakad.

Tapos. Sabi ni Woohoo, "Away naman ng away sila Jun lagi..."

tapos sabi ni Jan Di, "Oo nga eh... nakakairita."

Tapos sabi naman ni Woohoo, "Buti pa tayo, 'noh?" Sabay ngiti at hawak ng kamay ni Jan Di. Tapos napangiti si Jan Di. Tapos naglakad-lakad lang sila, hand in hand. Tapos, napagpasiyahan nila na bumalik na sa resto. Tapos, alam niyo ba? Pag pasok nila... Nakita nila na nagkikiss sila. Pero hindi yung kadiri ha. :)) yung kiss lang. *R 15.* (Sorry Karol. HAHA! JOKE)

Tapos siyempre nagtaka silang dalawa. Yung hindi maipinta yung mukha ni Woohoo at ni Jan Di. Nagtinginan sila tapos tinignan nila ulit sila. After a minute, tsaka lang narealize nila Binhoo at Jae Kyong na bumalik na sila Woohoo at Jan Di. Tapos. BUZZ! nagising na ko. :)) sayang.

Nabitin ako. Parang episode 1 yan, tapos kulang pa ng episode 2. Wala pa nga ep.2 eh. Di na natutuloy. hahaha

Wala lang. Alam ko wala kwenta, wala kasi makwento. Pero wala lang, gusto ko ishare. :))

Yun. Till the next post. :D

-Mangs.

AMIRICAN LIMON!

2009-08-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

Kwento! :D

yung sinsulat kasi ni Jillian, tungkol sa buhay niya. Eh mapintas siya. Tsk. Sakin pa niya naisip ipa edit. Puro super pintas na ang laman ng storya niya. hahaha

Basta yung favorite ko na line yung "The extra-extra loser slot is for *****." HAHAHAHA. wala lang. bangag.

Tapos eto naman. may inemail yung nanay ko sakin. Yung mga wirdo na signs tulad ng
"Amirican Limon" sa halaman

"Huwag tutok kingkong utot" sa likuran ng truck

"Don't step on the grass" pero wala namang damo

"ATM-Automatic Tubig Machine. Piso Piso lang! Mineral Water!" =)) nyets.

"Titing Bird's Animal Cages" ng isang store :))

Ewan ko ba. Lagi na lang ganito. Birthday ni Ian Mañez at ni Kuya Jason today. Batiin niyo. :D

=)) wala lang. natatawa talaga ako.

mabuhay!

Ang pelepenas!

June 24, 2009. Computer Lab.

2009-06-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

Hi. It's our Computer subject. And, yes, finally, we have our internet connection. There's nothing much to do, since Joomla isn't working.

And it's raining again outside. It's like the weather is expressing my emotions. The wind vanished a little earlier and it shined. But I was wrong. It rained a lot.

I thought I will be okay. I thought I'll be fine. But still there's a missing piece. I know I'm happy and I'm fine with my friends. But you're still the one I'm looking for. Whoa. Way corny and waaay emotional. I guess I really am feeling down today.

But that's what I love about my friends. They're always there to put my huge grin on my face. :D I'm beri super di duper thankful. :D

And I superdiduper love them all. haha

AAAT ayon. Wooo. Pero naiiyak ako. haha. Mahurt. haha.

=Mards.

another entry. :D

2009-06-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

It's the third day of school. Phew. Geometry isn't so simple. It is like algebra WITH shapes.

DOUBLE NOSEBLEED.

I thought Rona will never go to PUI ever again. Some say she transferred to another school. Well. It isn't true, and I thank fate for it.

It's the first time that Sir Edgar will be my teacher, I met him through my classmates and the school newspaper. I thought he was the serious and quiet type of teacher, but surprisingly, he loves to joke around. He's our class adviser. And yeah, my section is Cattleya. That classroom has a good view. *wink* haha! Aaaand. The canteen. My Sanctuary. Is empty. No food. Just water and juice and RC Cola. TSS! Whattabummer. It's like the diet ghost is haunting me and telling me I have to stop eating a lot. T.T

Well. Everything is okay. The stairs are just tiring. :)) Too many stairs. I'll be skinny by the end of the school year. HAHA. Aaaanyway. That's it. There's no more I can tell. It's kind of hard being a junior. And the Prom thing. The expenses! @_@ Hurt in pocket. (masakit sa bulsa?hahahaha!) Waa.

Pero. We can do this! HAHA. GO JUNIORS '09-'10!!!

hi! ^^

2009-05-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

hi!
ma popospone daw ang pasukan?

woo. ano kaya section ko? ano kaya section mo? ano kaya section niya? ano kaya section nila? ano kaya section natin?

nga pala. mukha akong lalaki ngayon.hahaha well. mainit eh. xD pahamak talaga. :))

parang ayaw ko pa pumasok na parang gusto ko na. Miss ko na kayo eh. haha

Ano kayaaa ang mangyayari? ano na kaya itsura niyo? maitim kaya kayo ngayon? Payat o mataba? (oo na, mataba pa din ako. wag ka magalala.) ano na kaya itsura ng jogging pants sa june?

ANO NA KAYA BAGO?! haha. hindi na ko updated.:D

sino adik sa Boys Over Flowers? Summary nga oh. di ako makarelate sa inyo. haha!

June na! yeeesss. ang simula ng panglalait ulit, ng pagtulog sa klase, ng pagtawa, ng mga assignments at projects aaaattt...

ng pagkain ng marami.

=))

ayyy. juniors na tayo itunes. :D sa 3rd floor na. nako. Pano pag 10 seconds na lang magbebell na, o di ang layo na masyado. Hindi yung sa 2nd floor lang. haha.

Actually, nakakatamad umakyat ng hagdanan eh. Dapat meron tayong elevator, kung hindi elevator, o di yung canteen dun na din. Para hindi nakakapagod. hahaha

Pero hindi talaga eh. HAHA.

Bakit ganun? Tag-ulan na daw. Pero wala namang ulan. Tss. -__-"

Ayon. Ang init dito sa kwarto. Tumutulo nanaman pawis ko. haha. Sauna room.

ayun ulit. Wala lang. wala na ko masabi. Sige, take care. haha!

Nga pala. eto ang matinding tanong:

Cattleya or Stargazer?:D

wheeeew.

2009-05-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

Whaaataaa day.

It's so boring. And so hot...

Pag nandito ako sa taas, at nagkulong, tutulo ang pawis. Para bang nasa sauna room.

Kawawa yung cellphone ko na 1-year old. Pundi na ata yung backlight. Siguro second time ko lang magkaroon ng isang phone na sobrang tagal. Matibay na 'to. Battered 'to eh. Lagi nahuhulog. At nababasa. Over used pa. O di ba? :)) astig ang 1208! bwahaha.

Eto. Masaraaap ang bucket of fries. YUM! Ayy. Alam niyo ba, masarap laklakin ang gravy?haha

"'Tay, ang tagalog ba po ng long time champion ay panaloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?" :)) la lang. corny, pero natatawa ako. haha

Ayun. Wala lang. Pang tanggal ng problema. Malapit na pasukan! June 8 daw sa P.U.I. :D

See you at school. :)

-Maaards

Feelin' so blue. I just woke up.

2009-05-06T09:24:00.000+08:00

I tried not to cry myself to sleep every night of everyday
But I can't, try as I may
I keep lying to myself saying that I'm okay
But I never found the right words to say

When I close my eyes,
You're all I see
Beneath those lies,
My feelings can't just let you be

Each passing day,
My heart gets worse
Each passing day,
It feels like a curse.

I can't believe that you're bidding goodbye
I can't believe that I couldn't even ask you why
I just stood there, watching you as you walk away
From that day, I regret never making you stay

My heart breaks into pieces each second that passes by
Then my tears betray me; they escape from my eyes
I can't wear this smile a little more longer
I guess I'll always be the dreamer

It's just excruciating to see you go
To see you leave, to never let you know
But you always had me at hello
How I loved you, I never showed

I'll smile for you despite this heart ache
I never want it this way
But it makes you happy
It makes you feel free.

I'm sorry I wasted your time
I'm sorry you have to know me
I'm sorry that I still wait
But this is really our fate

-Margetot.
"Love you forever.."

May 4, 2009. Monday.

2009-05-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

Right now. I just...want to cry. Everything shattered. Everything disappeared. My hopes. My dreams. My love. I feel dead, inside and outside. My eyes are swollen, and they hurt. But most of all... My heart hurts. It hurts like hell; the pain is excruciating. Maybe we really are not meant to be...

Sh!t. I wish this is only a dream. Only a nightmare... I wish...

The way he said goodbye... hurts. ouch. :(

His pride. I wish it is gone. Deleted. I wish it never existed.

I remember when I used to sing Sandali Na Lang by Hale. I was full of hope... But then the hope disappeared.

Sandali Na Lang
Hale

Sandali na lang
Konting panahon
Aking paghihintay
Na makasama ka

Sandali na lang
At abot tanaw
Ang pagkakataon
Na makita ka

Naiinip, nasasabik, kasing bilis
Nang isang iglap mahahanap
Sa may ulap
Nagtatanong, nagtataka
Ba't wala ka pa?
Nakatingala, nakatulala
Pero sabi mo

Sandali na lang
At nandito na
At ang panahon
Ay wala sa ating kamay

Huwag mag-alala
Maraming oras pa
Ang nakalaan
Para sa ating dalawa

Sandali na lang...

Well.. I think singing this is better for me now...

Skip The Drama
Hale

I can never be with you forever
I don't want to pick you up when you fall
I don't want to hold your hand
To make you feel good about me
You've been okay all of this time

Let's all skip the drama
Believe on what is real

I don't want to be the one who completes you
I know that I'll never make you whole
I'll never let you see me down
Hopeless and needing you around
We have all the time in the world

Let's all skip the drama
Believe on what is real

I'd give you everything that you want
But I won't let you
Cause I'm with you
And you're with me

Or maybe this song..

Back From Beginning
Hale

We used to be alive
We used to be happy
These irrelevant thoughts
Keep running into my head

We used to be in peace
Now we're both weary
So tell me the truth
Are we falling out

Oh are we running for our lives
The truth is I want you now
Like I wanted you last time
Are we headed to the end of this line
Gone to the other side

This place is so serene
Swallowed by sadness
This picture is not
What I have been looking for

We've never been apart
And now you're drifting
Further away
Further away from me

Can you feel
Can you feel it
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to you

I used to think we're done
Back from beginning

Ouch.

I'll remember this day.

It crushed me.

May 4, 2009. Monday.
9:07:15 pm.

I hope you're happy now... I hope you'll find her. But I still wish... I'm her.

I want to complete you... You still hold the key to my heart.

Well. Goodnight...

I hate to say goodbye, too.

But it really is goodbye this time.

:'(

-Margetot.

I love you.

Sorry sorry. I really have to! It's a must. xD

2009-05-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

Well. I'm home! How are things? How are you? How's your day? WHAT HAPPENED?!?!

I haven't posted in while, and there's a lot of things in my mind.

Well. Actually, it's just one person. But.. Yeah. A lot has happened.

I won't tell you the rest, though. It'll bore you to death.

I just want to... I don't know. I want to forget it, really. I want to tell it to someone. It's killing me.

All this time, I was hurting him.
He was hurt... Because of my past.

Well, he's not mad at me. It's like, he is sad for what they did to me.
It may seem flattering, well, I think so, too, but they hurt him. And those are part of me.
It hurts to know that I'm hurting him. I hate knowing I'm that monster. :(

The worst part is, he blames himself for those mistakes. He says that he should've warned me 'cause he knew. I don't know what to tell him, he wouldn't let me blame myself for my mistakes... I wish I could erase those junk. I wish they'd never happened.

Well. I just want to blame myself... I blame myself for making him miserable. It's heart-breaking to see him blame himself, drink, cry and being such a drama king... I still doubt he's avoiding other girls, but I have this feeling that he's quite serious--I hope&&wish.

WELL. I think that's all I want to tell. The crucial part. The really, really, really weird part. I wish he is the person I know before. I wouldn't want him to change who he really is. Well, except for the jerky-girl-collecting part of him. I hope he'll uninstall that program. Unless it's a default program. (OH NO... Why didn't I think of that before? T.T)

THAT'S ALL. I feel... better. :) WOOT. I apologize for this moment... Again.

Goodnight folks.

Ta-daaa!

2009-04-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

You've guessed it. I'm so bored.

It was a tiring day though. I keep on walking in the mall, do the pranks I always do (they are bad pranks... *evil laugh*) but still, it's boring. It's like it's always missing something... or maybe someone. It's kismet that I have to live with boredom. No matter how tiring or busy it may be, it's still boring. It's like I never did enjoy the stuff I enjoy (sleeping, eating, watching TV, using the computer and SMS-ing). Weird. Maybe it's just because I haven't heard from him for a while. Yeah. That's a reason... I think.

But I still enjoy people's company; my aunties', my mom's, my dad's and my sister's, my cousins' and the dogs. (Yes, I consider them as humans.) It is fun to hang around them again. My two aunts just had a visit here, at the Phils., from States; specifically from New Jersey. Lots of books actually; I like it. I got a handbag, with a shiny metal on the front with the letters "XOXO". I don't actually like handbags. I think it's so girly. I'm kind of boyish. The color is rainbow. HAHAHAHA. So not like me. I usually go for black or brown, or something plain. Well, it's a change.

I got a Motorola Razr. It's not much, and it's a hand-me-down phone. But it works well. It's way cooler than my Nokia 1208. :)) I saw a guy earlier. I thought it was Wilson Teh. HAHA. They have the same hair, posture, color... But that guy was inches taller. And he was in the silver shop. Oh yeah. I saw a cute guy. He's wearing pink. It reminds me of the pink shirt that says "tough guys wear pink". Hey, my father wears pink, and no, he's not gay.

It's almost Ahya Marcel's 19th birthday. He's getting older by the second. :D He's my cousin and the one who inspired me with different stuff. Well. Happy Birthday! (if ever he would read this post...)

Hmm. Well. I'm boring you to death. Thanks for reading what's inside my head. =D

Take care! :)

P.S. I'm at my cousin Abby's house in Antipolo. I borrowed her laptop. :D Wala lang. Sinasabi lang. Nakakamangmang. xD

@_@ Sorry.haha

2009-04-21T08:44:00.000+08:00

He does dazzle me. But it's like I'm Edward Cullen and he's Bella Swan.

Why???
with a big W and three questin marks.

'Cause I can't read him. He's unpredictable. I can't stay away from him and resist him. Well... It really is frustrating.

Wala lang. Pero seryoso yun. haha minsan talaga, hindi ko siya maintindihan kung bakit ganoon ang reaction niya. Tapos maiinis ako sa sarili ko at sa kanya, kasi hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung paano ko siya mapapangiti.
(tss. ako pa talaga ang dapat magpangiti noh.haha eh ganun eh, babae siya ako yung lalaki.)

Haha. Minsan ako pa dapat mangsuyo. Nakakainis. HAHA. Pero ayos lang. Tanga kasi ako eh.
Yung kantang Take Me With You ng Secondhand Serenade yung gusto niya na iplay ko para daw sa kanya... Alam ko na yung intro, yung pinaka magandang part. As in kayang kaya ko na gawin... Pero sa kasamaang palad, ninerbyus ako ng sobra-sobra. Nanginig kamay ko at namawis, nagkamali yung mga napluck ko na strings at namali yung frets. Patawa. Nakakahiya. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ganun, hindi naman ako natatakot dati dun.:))

Bwisit. Pahiya talaga ako. Hindi ako naggitara ng ilang araw dahil dun. Nanginginig pa rin ang kamay ko.haha wala lang. Nashare ko lang. Kasi, wala lang. Gusto ko lang talaga ilabas. Nakakapagpabagabag kasi. :D

Hmm. Wala lang. Wala ko maisip na patawa ngayon. Blanko ang lokong isip (blanko pala ang ganito kahaba nuh, haha parang sira). Pero seryoso, wala talaga akong masabing matino. Pasensya na kung puro tungkol na lang sa kanya. Yun lang talaga naiisip ko ngayon.(Parati naman eh.)

Nga pala, andito ako sa U.P. Diliman, sa bahay ng auntie ko. Haha. Wala lang. Nisasabi ko lang sa inyo. Medyo boring nga, kasi walang magawa eh. Dagdagan pa ng makulit na six-year old na kapatid na sasabihin sa'yo "ACHI! AKO NA! AKO NA! WALA AKONG MAGAWA! TSK! AKO NA KASI! GUSTO KO NA!"Haha. Medyo nakakairita. Kanina pa yan eh. Alam niyo gagawin niya? PET SOCIETY lang. Hmp.

Ayon. Bagot na bagot na ako. Sige. Lalayas na ako. Sorry kung mahaba at parang may alter ego ako na nangbabara sa sarili.

Ingat kayo. Have a nice day. =P

A poem. :)

2009-04-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

I try to be perfect
I do everything you say
I try to show you what you expect
But you show no care anyway

People say I'm wasting my time on you
For a second, I thought I was
But then, I realize that I wasn't.
'Cause you are my everything

They keep telling me I'm a fool
That I'm insane
It's true
But I don't mind

You're my sun
And I'm just a planet
If you leave
I'll die...in coldness.

that's it. I know it's crappy.. but that's what I feel. :)

Uhm. Just asking around.

2009-04-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

Random facts:

When it comes to variety in names, girls rule. Again, according to the Census Bureau, approximately 90 percent of the U.S. population is covered by 4,275 different girls' names, but only 1,219 different boys' names. Why so many fewer names for boys than for girls? It may be that boys' names are more tradition-bound, because boys are more likely to be named after a relative. Another possibility: Although this is changing, our society still clings to the assumption that boys will eventually have to get "serious" jobs (and so need serious-sounding names), while girls won't, leaving more leeway for creativity, if not frivolity.

It's a common myth that chocolate aggravates acne. Experiments conducted at the University of Pennsylvania and the U.S. Naval Academy found that consumption of chocolate -- even frequent daily dietary intake -- had no effect on the incidence of acne. Professional dermatologists today do not link acne with diet

The largest number of children born to one woman is recorded at 69. From 1725-1765, a Russian peasant woman gave birth to 16 sets of twins, 7 sets of triplets, and 4 sets of quadruplets.

Goodbye" came from "God bye" which came from "God be with you."

uhm. that's all. haha!

Goodnight! Goodbye. ;)

just a day.

2009-04-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I talked to my friends. I kind of miss going to school--because of them.

I'm just hoping to see him this summer. I've always wanted to see him. I saw him months ago, December 24, 2008, at around 11 pm, he's wearing black... And he was smiling. It was a nice picture in my mind. It was dark and I could barely see his face. But still, I was happy. I was rather dazzled by his eyes and smile (I saw them when a car passed by, it's headlights were so bright) It was like "this is him... The person I am in love with... And he is standing in front of me even if I look like garbage. " I was really happy to see him.

I also want to see Mons. It's been a while..

Oh well. Nothing special today. It rained. It's weird it rained. I wasn't feeling gloomy. It usually rains when I'm down. At least it's cold. :D

-Marge

P.S. I like the Korean Telenovela "Only You" itill move you. :D

The Last Day. =c

2009-04-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

The last day. The last day. I can't believe how fast time flies. It's the last day we'll hang out. Last day I'll go to her house and be chaotic around her. I'll miss tickling her when she is very, very serious. I'll miss hugging her sooooo tight. aww. I guess I'll just miss her a LOT. Michelle will be leaving on the 4th of April, but she's going to Bulacan the morrow to drop her cousins off to their houses, and to Manila (I think),near the airport. I wish I could go to the airport, too. Haaay. It's just so sad to know that she's already going back to Japan. She'll be miles away...again. I wanted to cry earlier when I was saying "Bye, uwi ka ulit. Lablab kita." while hugging her. Her voice was shaking; and so was mine. I hugged her so tight, as tight as I can. It's like, she's my twin, (my twin INSIDE...) and we're going to be separated again. TTT.TTT hay. We shall meet again, in the future. I'll remember this day, for it gave me sadness and happiness........

April 2, 2009, Thursday.

I'll miss my Kabit, my Michoi, my Best Friend Michelle B. Nakamuraaa! hahaha.

AAAAND!

tanan. I won't forget this guy. haha

Mark "buboy" Bernardo. My super di-duper katok friend. hahaha. 'Till the next summer? haha.

Sweetest Dreams.

-Marge
It isn't as easy as it seems.

Another Fight.

2009-03-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

You know what? Sometimes, I really, really, really want to give up on you. I'm tired of waiting and tolerating you. The voice in my left ear says "Leave him now, he's just wasting your time" the other voice in my right ear says "No, don't leave him; he's just having a bad day. Give him another chance, hold on. Don't give up yet." Can't you see? You're hurting me a lot. But I don't complain, I never thought of complaining. Why, you ask? 'Cause I don't want you to avoid me. I don't want to push you away.

You still are the reason why I smile. :D

Don't worry...I'm still holding on..

goodnight.

-Marge

kaya pa to. :]

Today's just...fine. :)

2009-03-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today. March 28,2009

It's a blast. Super! hahahaha. LOL

First of all, being with Michelle, my best friend, is the best that could happen. Then, with her cousin, Mark (but she calls him "Buboy", I got used to it, so I call him that, too. haha!) I laughed a lot, he's very funny, loko loko nga sobra. First, he said "HOY!!!" in a crowd, and a lot of people looked at him with a weird expression. LMAO. tapos, yung nasa jeep na kami, pauwi, he sang "KUNG!!!naririnig mo, ang naririnig ko, parang narinig ko narin, ang naririnig mo" there. =)) ang dami tumingin! =)) laugh trip talaga. ayon. Hanggang ngayon, habang nita-type ko ito, tumatawa ako. Pinagtri-tripan ko mga tao dito, mga kachat ko. ewan ko ba, ang lakas ng tama ko. HAHA!

pasensya. bangag lang. bwahaha!

goodnightie,xD

THE day

2009-03-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

Today is the day. Today is the day I see them leave... It's really saddening. But yeah, no tears. But I'll miss their presence. I'll surely miss Kuya Jarvin, Kuya Kim Ang, Achi Yen, Achi Jez and Kuya Kevin. They've been a big part of me. :) Ohh well. It's another year of studying on June. Can't wait. xD

bad day, good night.

2009-03-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

Oh well. It was since yesterday, my friend and I were fighting. I don't exactly know why, he didn't told me. He just hung up on me while we were talking on our phones, and in the morning, the whole day, we weren't talking... I felt guilty about not smiling so much, because my best friend Michelle, just got home from another country. It's like, I'm gloomy and happy at the same time. (I told you I'm weird.)
Then, today, I was so sad, I overslept and woke up at 12 nn. Then, as usual, I did my after-I-wake-up routine, the go-to-the-bathroom routine; pee, wash my face, wet my hair and brush my teeth. Then, grab some lunch, and sit in front of the computer. I was waiting for a "Good Morning" message, but guess what? I didn't see his name in my inbox. I switched my phone off, I was so disappointed. I surfed the net teary-eyed. My mom made me go to the bank and send my brother his allowance. Stupid bank. I'm not used to their system. I'm used to the other bank. My 31 peso-load became 7.80. Eff. After, I went to the mall to buy stuff. Weird. I got tired. I usually don't get tired.
Let's skip the other stuff. Then this night, I was talking to Kuya Jayvee, Mina and him. I thank Kuya Jayvee for making me laugh like a hayeena.(I don't know how to spell it, okay?) and Mina. This night is soooo... happy? One of the reasons is the "Marge Controversy"... :)) the second reason is "Itlog na hinawakan ni Gary" =)) my gas. Sumakit tyan ko dito. :)) and the last one is peace between us... ^^ right now, we're talking non-sense...AGAIN. Our favorite topic. HAHA! actually, we don't have any topic. We just talk. And talk... And talk. :)

and the best part is, it feels so great to smile again. The not-fake-smile. Ü

-Marge
see you in dreamland. :]